Monthly Archives: April 2010

Strong enough

The morning after Mike died.
The friend that had spent the night with me had stayed as long as she could before needing to get to her work.  I was left alone for only a short time before another friend came over, carrying armloads of groceries, and boxes of tissues.  As she came through the door [...]



It’s difficult to make the conscious decision to move forward.  Living in my memories of the past, my time with Mike, is where contentment lives.  It feels safe there.  I think of our few years together and I feel happy with our experiences, our conversations, and our interactions.  It’s easy to just live in the [...]

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Salt Water

“The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears, or the sea”

~Isak Dinesen
So powerful.  So true.

I’ve certainly used more of the tears in the past two and a half years as my “cure”.

Sweat… yah, sometimes.  More lately.  They say it’s impossible to cry when you’re running, but I’m here to say that’s [...]

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And Afterward, many are strong in the broken places

“The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong in the broken places. But those that will not break it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there [...]

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You in my dream

I dreamed of you last night.  It’s been a while since you’ve come to me in my dreams.  It was the first time in many, many months that I didn’t wake up with an overwhelming longing for you.
Seems like such a silly dream for you to come visit me.  I was in the process of [...]

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New grief aspects

New aspects of this godforsaken grief creep into my life at unexpected turns.  In the beginning it would happen every day.  After the one year mark it began happening less.  After the two year mark I began feeling that I’d most definitely explored every nook and cranny that grief offered.  Every emotion, every anxiety, every [...]

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