Monthly Archives: December 2007

Missing you on Christmas Day

Merry Christmas Love,
I miss you so much.  It’s Christmas morning and I’m laying  in bed with your laptop, writing to you, when I should be in your arms.  Last night was so difficult, all I could focus on was memories of the past Christmas Eve’s we’ve spent together.  Memories are supposed to console me, but [...]

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Christmas Eve


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An email from an old friend…

From an old friend Mike and I met while working together at NURC.  He was an intern for a short time, but make an impact on both of our lives.  He sent me a beautiful email about Mike and finding out on his own about what happened, and I just wanted to share his story.  [...]

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On Grief and Grieving

(photo: taken by Mike of friend Russ while in Colorado)
I am reading a book right now in the hopes that it will better help me to understand what I’m going through.  Even I don’t understand my own feelings and reactions, and am sometimes surprised by them.
I want to share an excerpt from the book that [...]

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Doctor Appt.

Everything went fine today.  I was pretty hungry by the time I got to the office in Miami.  They gave me the sugar drink, orange flavor, then I had to wait an hour until they took blood.  In the meantime I got in to see the doctor, so fortunately I wasn’t just sitting around the [...]

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Catching up

Everyone has been so concerned, sending me emails, wondering if I’m “OK” since I haven’t written in a while.  Thank you for being so worried about me.  I have not written on the blog for some time because I just haven’t had the motivation.  I’ve been emotionally drained of everything, and yet I still have [...]

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Almost 2 months

Tomorrow is the 5th.  Already?  Two months seems like such a long time, and yet, it still feels like yesterday.  It’s such a different feeling now than it was two months ago.  Now, the pain is intense, whereas then, I was numb.  Now, the deep ache inside me is what controls my every thought, action, [...]

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We weren’t going to say anything, but…

Seriously Mom, have you noticed how much weight you’ve put on recently?  Cause it’s kinda hard for us not to notice.   And, if you’re going to eat so much, can’t you pass a little bit our way?  Maybe just a chip, or a crumb or something?  We’d really appreciate it.

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Michael R. Smith Benefit

I’m still reeling from last night’s benefit.  The overwhelming outpouring of love and extreme generosity has hit me, straight in my core.  I still feel like I’m in a cloud, floating off somewhere, not sure where, but not here.  My mind can’t comprehend the magnitude of what happened last night.
I knew it would be an [...]

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